♥Its harder than you think

The more i try to get you out of my head, the more i tend to think about you. "Skali 10 years from now, bile i nampak u, u changed alrdy eyh. Jalan pun satsat. Hahah. Klau i dapat tau yg u masuk baju, isap rokok, i sepak u. Takpe, I will still be waiting for u ". Those stupid quotes of yours are still lingering in my mind. Hot tears will then roll down my cheeks each tyme i think about it. U said u will care fr me and protect me always. But now, u just leave me suffering alone. U said tt ure not like the other guys i used to knw. U said u wouldnt be like them, u said u wouldnt hurt me but eventually u did. I thought tt u could be someone i can turn to when im feeling down, be the shoulder fr me to cry on. But all of those can only remain as my fantasy. Yes, u won. U won this tyme. I seriously dunt know how guys get over things easily when we, girls have to bear the sufferings. & I really didnt expect to come across her blog while bloghopping. I tink it's already fated fr me to know about it. FCUK U LARH! WHY DID U EVEN BOTHER MY BESTIE AND I WHEN U ALRDY HAVE UR GAL! LUCKILY WE WERE'NT TRAP BY U! FCUKTARD!
&TO LIZAHHUNN(: :THANKS LOVE,SAYANG2 KAU. KAU SUNGGUH SWEET LARH KAN,HEH?KITER BERTIGE JIWE AHH EYH. ;D
Will be away fr camp 2mrw and will be back on the 30th,do miss me ayye awesomes.~ghee. sayonara((:

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The drastic change in u is really unexpected. I thought that you will never go back to your past and will keep moving on .. It was shocking when you somewhat turned back to your past . Haiys. Forget about u ? WOW much ! That easy for u to sae, huh ? It's obviously easier said than done.
`Apakah kesalahanku dan juga tingkah laku ku ?
I thought u wouldnt be like the others who just treated me well at the beginning but u eventually just come and go.
FCUK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!FCUK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!FCUK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!FCUK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FCUK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FCUK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!FCUK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!FCUK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!FCUK THIS SHIT !
DARN SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ive read Big Monster's blog & i found these lines ohh-soo-true..
`Heartbreak is the most excruciating and most fucked up feeling as i have been learning now. Disappointments after disappointments.

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Im boreddd ryte now. Currently chatting wyf my awesomee asses, Radhialove&Lizahlove ! We smewhat conference and irritate each other. Oh well, actually they irritate me most by making me lost in the conversations, at the beginning. hahah. But still, this by smewhat help to get rid the boredom in me. hahah. Went out wyf Syahirahlove frm about 1+ till 7+. Met her love at somerset fr his break then Sya and i walked around Orchard. Super hectic todae but still enjoyed it. hah. Radhialove will be away tomorrow till 3oth. & cuzzies will be on a holiday trip which i cant be able to tag along bcos of my camp. tsk. sedih. i'll be R-O-T-T-I-N-G at home. Enjoy ahh krng2! Someone bring me out,pls ? haiyaya. ok,slamat. takecare awesomes!

BOOHOO! XD
Smalm kecohkecohkecoh! Fooh~ Luckily nothing went real bad. Oh,dearest,thanks sangat2 ayye. Didnt know tt u guys were vigilant to even notice all of those ..... &srry yer for being somewhat stubborn which leads to a problem for all of u. heh. I will listen to whatever u all advice me to do next tyme, Insya-ALLAH. NO PROMISES. heheh^^
I tink todae is really a scary day fr me. At the night,when i was walking home, i heard someone calling my name about thrice,i tink? When i turned, tt person tried to avoid me. So i wasnt really sure who that was. After so, he just walked to another place wyf his 2 other frens. Eeiik! My heart then beat real fast cos i was scared,ghee~ Im like still wondering who tt person is cos i didnt have a chance to really look at his face. I dont remember having anything to do wyf those ppl. Tapi mengape dieorang mengekori sayer eyh? :/
Will be having Maths lesson again later. bye~

HEY PEOPLE! IM BACK!^^
Awwh,thankiew loves fr helping me to update my almost / already dead blog,actually. U guys make it alive again! hahah. Had been real busy recently. Thus, had no time to update this blog. && srraye BBYGS fr not spending my tyme wyf u guys. Maafkan sayer yer? Sayer tdak sengaje. Sayer merindui kamu semue. Awwhh. &Ohh Rad, if we make it on the 23rd, can u make it ? We really need to go out lah kan. It has been ages since i last went out wyf u guys, my awesome BABYGS. Cheyh, exaggerating eyh. Terime kaseh yer Radhia fr helping to update blog sayer nie. heh. &to tt someone, who says im not angry wyf u fr updating it late huh ? I am, I am! Cheyh, no larh. Im good,kind and patient. hahaha! ^^
Baek ahh,have to like turn up fr maths lessons later and tuesday. . hah. But nehmind, have to brush up. & i tink imma gonna be dead when sch reopen,especially thanks to the fact that i'll be having mock exam fr all subjects during the 1st week of sch. Cos know why ? I havent even started revising my subjects except fr maths! im screwed ! :/
`I MISS MY AWESOME BABYGS....... RADHIALOVE, PLEASE BE ABLE TO MAKE IT ON THE 23RD COS WE'RE ONLY WAITING FOR THE DAE U CAN... I AM REALLY HOPING THAT THE OUTING WILL STILL BE ON!

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Hello! Im here to help update this little gal's blog. Haha. Actually,more to copy and paste. sorry kecik lambat updatekn blog. haha. So,here we go ....
`13 DEC 2009
I dont understand my feelings. Ive been told that i shldnt assume what the other party has at mind cos tt prediction of mine can always betray me. Haiys. Well,i guess everyone is already sick and tired of telling/advising me what to do. Cos according to one, i dont take his/her advice into much consideration cos i always assume the negative things. Haiys,i cant even understand it myself.
Oh dear, can some2 pls wake me up frm this dream ? I wish someone had just shot me straight at my face/heart. Blahblahblah...& now, im unsure if i should go fr my npcc annual camp or tag along wyf my cuzzies fr a holidae trip ?Haiyaya, i dont understand why i cant give a straight answer. Im like always unsure when it comes to making decision in my lyfe. Darn! I hate tt fact. Why?Why?Can some1 tell me why this is so? I wanna go fr the fancy drill tingy but idk ahh. Haiys..
`14 DEC 2009
Weee~~
I had a dream. W8, shall i kal it a swtdream? Hah,whatever. Cos whatever it is, i know it will not turn into a reality. Awwh. Nevermind, at least ive got the feeling . Hahah,k lame. Asl lah dlm bnyk2, bleyh termimpi psl dieq ? Not only tt. There was even flashback,still. Haiys.. Dugaan2.. Hahah, but nehmind,some1 taught me to be patient and strong to face all this. Thanks love,appreciate it lots!^^
`17 DEC 2009
Hey people! Had npcc tingy 10 am- 3pm or so. Walked to EastCoastPark together wyf CIs and squadmates frm sch. Familarised wyf the games all. I loike one of the games at sch. The trust 4 or something like tt. It's like jetty jump. Thn suddenly had a flashback. Blahblahblah. Oh,btw, 'thanks' ahh Cat for 'volunteering' for me to do the jump/fall. Hah. All my worries were gone when im out wyf my awesome squadmates! hahah. Then, after we're done wyf all the things, we walked slowly to ECP mac despite the heavy downpour. On the wae, Fisa and i chatchatchat about stuffs. Thanks for the support and advice,hunn. Sayang kamu! hah.
`18 DEC 2009
HEY! Did nothing much todae. Did usual stuffs at home. Waited fr Hanis and Hildah till about 6 plus ? Then went to bubble tea and mac wyf them and sis about 8 plus. Chilled wyf them till early 10 then accompanied them to the bus stop. After so, went home wyf sis. Then, Fisa texted! hahah, we textedtextedanndddtexted. Manage to make her smile when i mentioned her ''someone's'' name. hahah. Kiter tunggu dieorng balik lepas tuhh kiter fight k? Cnfrm i win u ahh eventhough u manage to complain to urs first. heeha^^
K,i am done. Look at the dates of the posts. Really overdued huh? sorry kecik. maaf sekali. but i know u wont scold me. haha,perasan eh.

eh hiiiii. how you doing awesomes?

ghee. RADHIA here to update her blog since she can't use her comp or whatsoever. so im here; letting her blog alive again aye or whatever you call that.

hmps, so these few days have been hectic for her. i guess so? since she got no tyme to update / spare her tyme with us ;l

kan kan kanns? just say yes. i knowww. HAHAHAHA. kay drop the topic.

tyme flies & im happy wyf the rate im going now. Yanty? idk.

i hope she's doing great ayyy.

oh yayaya. thee outing? how how yan? i can't make it on thee 20th - 22nd oiyt. haiys ;l

i missmiss/love Pet, Syas & Yann lah, duh. aww, sweet lah kan i nie? HAHAHA, gawsh.

sorry peeps. im irritating, i know.

so, dengan ini, i would like to ..

erhhhhhh.

i would like tooooooooooooooo

end this post ^^

bye lovelies <3

May peace be upon you(:

Firstly, I simply hate this! It's like one problem after another. Haiys.. Ive never felt this way before fr quite some time . Why must i face this situation aqain ? & im in a confusion state rite now cos im unsure if what i was told is the truth or only rumours ? Siqh. I cant have a piece of mind thinkinq about this all day lonq...
Secondly, I tink by the end of this month, imma qonna be fat! I keep on munchinq when i feel down/pissed/whatever. But who cares? Go and die.
Lastly,fcuk this shit/lyfe/everythinq. Sometimes i wonder if it's worth the tears ? Cos i feel stupid fr sheddinq those tears. Or the truth is tt im already stupid? Blahblahblah...... & srraye peeps if im not replyinq to any of your messaqes. Im just pissed wyf every sliqht thinqs and i reallyh hate it. Ok,bye,will update aqain when i feel like it.
`I cant believe tt thinqs can completely chanqe within 3-4 days ? WOW MUCH!

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