It's harder than you think it is

2010-12-01T18:25:00.003+08:00

Sahar is a noob !
Amek kau.
haha
:p

2010-12-01T17:44:00.002+08:00

I cant no longer go on pretending
It pretty much hurts when others are bad-mouthing u . True .
But how long must i deny the fact and pretend to not know anything when ure even treating me this way .
We missed the old u , really .
We ' re too tired trying when u dont seem to even bother .
It ' s fruitless when our plea fell on deaf ears .
We really hope that u ' ll realise it soon . No, i mean everything .

2010-12-01T17:27:00.004+08:00

` I kinda feel it doesnt make sense
Bcos ure bringing me in and now ure kicking me out again
Love so strong, now u moved on
Now i hung up in suspense ,
Bcos ure bring me in and now ure kicking me out again

2010-11-28T17:05:00.002+08:00

Uve picked me up and uve shown me that there's better ones out there.
Thanks. I enjoyed my day yesterday .
Finally we spent our time together after awhile .
;xoxo

2010-11-26T21:18:00.002+08:00

I hate the fact that news are spraeding faster than we ever expected it.
Why cant anyone just keep the things they're not supposed to reveal to themselves ?
The best is to keep your secrets only with u as that's the safest route u can take if u do not wish it to be spread as rumours.

;Just a thought :)

2010-11-26T06:52:00.002+08:00

Some friends come and go easily without leaving any trace behind.
However, true friends stay. Treasure your friends.
Do not shed your tears on someone who does not even bother about you.
If they ' re worth it , keep them .
If they ' re not , let it be .
;xoxo

2010-05-24T19:50:00.004+08:00

HEY. HELLO. HI.
My blog is dead, rite ? Haiyak, had been busy these few weeks. Hmm, i guess i nyd to pull my socks frm now on as ive not been really progressing as i wished. Nvm, there's still time. Hmm, what else? Ohh, many had been asking me about my life. Well, im doing good, i suppose? hah. Just nyd to adapt more wyf this tough and challenging life / world. Okay,im done fr now. Sayonara.

Im still waiting and is just waiting for that time / moment to occur again. hahah. tc

2010-04-22T16:20:00.004+08:00

hey hey!
this is Dd posting in for feiry.

well, many things happened today. haha. we were the craziest!
first, C got into trouble and she had too see her after sch. it was okay except for one thing. her skirt. haha. feiry was panicking and wanted to find someone to change with her for awhile. of course la, she didnt want to get into trouble too. ahaha. anw, the skirt was at fault. lol. weird length. anws, she couldn't find anyone cause all was the same! there's no diff if she changed with them. we were at the library during MT. free period. tried to forget bout it for awhile. she brought her netbook. so, she did her usual things. haha. and we listen to achik's songs.. duet with nana.. it was so nice.. we really miss him, and he's cute . =) then the period's over and she had to go down. still couldnt find anyone! then amira came in. asked her if she could change. then she and feiry went to the toilet, and i used the netbook for awhile. then amira came back, i thought she had went down, but she said to me that feiry asks me to go toilet and meet her. then i went. and i can see she was still panicking! cause the skirt was not right. she didnt change with amira la. so i tried exchanging with her. but... it was so funny. mine's so long when she wore it and i wore hers like a mini skirt. lol. there was no way i would wear her skirt. i told her just go down like that but she'll be dead la. haha. tension in the toilet. then called C and , good news. they met her ready so no need too go down! haha. both of us laughed like crazy. phew! close call. but tmr she have to face the music la if she wears it. good luck yanty.
then went back to library. resumed our work, feiry used the netbook, which she hasnt returned up till now. haha. horrible child you! then listened to songs again. and i showed her this hilarious baby laugh in youtube. adorable! laughed like crazy. yanty saw it ready. laughed till got stitches. hahaha. tried to did my english but couldnt concentrate to decided to do it at home. did maths instead.
then the most shocking thing happened. never did we saw her in the library before, then just now she was there! everyone's like whispering and both of us heard. we were so lucky that we shared my earpiece, so we can hear their whispers. if not we wouldn't know she's there! then everyone kept their phones and what not.. haha. the girls clipped up their hair. funny funny. feiry freaked out and quickly kept her netbook. lol. it was lacking and she was frustrated. had to log off first what.. then pretend to be innocent. luckily she didnt came to us. phew! another close call.
library suddenly became quiet and some even went out to save themselves. lol.. then feiry wanted to leave too, but we didnt know if she was still in the room. but she was. haha. panicked again. i didnt want to leave yet. but feiry wanted to. amira was infront of us,relaxed. haha. nth to worry about. then i finished up my maths, packed and rushed off! another close call.
went up to return netbook. then decided to go down 1st floor and leave. quickly went down, my legs were hurting because of pe. uhh.. went canteen and feiry asked hanafi sth, just to find out someone was there. oh my.. just walked la. he kept looking. didnt bother. then wanted to leave quickly. while we was walking, feiry saw her at the third level. feiry suddenly shouted to me, and scared the hell out of me.. run!! haha.. damn funny.. she grabbed my hand then ran out of sch. laughing along the way. close call, again.
walked to tnh mrh. went to the toilet, and it was the worst. the smell was killing us. you cant imagine what its like. laughed and laughed cause cannot take it ! haha. went out for awhile and left our bags in the toilet! serious seyy. cannot tahan the smell. overpowering. then held our breath and went in again. opened the door for awhile to let the air go out or in, whatever la. didnt know what we were doing. hahahaa.. someone was in the cubicle inside. then when she came out, we tried not to laugh. i was relaxed, but feiry wanted to laugh. she was like,.. how can you tahan this smell Dd?? haha. then the person went out. and feiry and i immediately laughed. lol. we were so bad. but the smell was undescribable. haha. i took out my cologne and sprayed the whole toilet! hahaaha.. could not take it alrd.. it smelled much better. then some ppl went in and we tried to be serious.. but failed. lol. kept laughing. then the smell came again!! and the soap, my goodness. it was like alrd expired for how many decades seyy. soaps are supposed to be fragrant, but that one's so pungent. disgusting. quickly grabbed our bags and left the toilet. fresh air! hahah.
then went seperate ways and headed home.

today was so hilarious. one of the most memorable days of our lives. 22nd april 2010. 3 more days before feiry's bday! everytime when a special day is coming, sth must happen. haha. you know what i mean, feiry. haha

signing off, Dd.
and HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY, FEIRYANTY! weee! =)

2010-04-22T13:36:00.003+08:00

I LOVELOVELOVE MY Dd!! But i love hym more. Cheyh.. Hahah, random. :D

2010-04-15T14:49:00.004+08:00

Hello people. It had been some time since I last posted something on my bloggy. Well, actually ive got nothing much to say. Had been super busy and lethargic wyf all the assignments, coursework and exams. But, hey, shouldnt complain much as all of these are for my own good. Furthermore, this is the mundane lyfe of a student. Hah.
&TO YOU: PLEASE stop bothering. Dont worry, u dont owe me any explaination. (:

2010-03-18T20:52:00.003+08:00

FALLING OUT OF LOVE IS HARD, FALLING FOR BETRAYAL IS WORST...

2010-02-14T03:12:00.004+08:00

HEY !
STC was SUPERB, like seriously ! I cant believe I actually did all the elements. But my mouth was very noisy as i shouted alot of tymes. hahah. &I pity Ash cos i shouted at hym when doing the skateboard thingy when I felt like falling. I was damn scared, that's why ! Baaah. Heh,srry buddy ! &Oh, I LOVE FLYING FOX THE MOST ! IT WAS AWESOME ! I really didnt regret going fr HRC! I was filled wyf titillation thruout the whole adventure! Heh. &Hmm,when walking to the campsite, the memories at STC refreshed. Ok stop,shouldnt elaborate more.
&&Congrats ayye BEDOK SOUTH FLOORBALL TEAMS! U guys were really awesome mann! Especially during the match against VS. 3-3 eyh ! Hah.
Oh,u knw, u knw. I had this weird+cute+funnyh dream yesterday. Shared some of it wyf my sis but she said tt he's not worth thinking. haiya. & I also dreamt that my granny loves kinder bueno chocolate! How cute can tt be ? heheh. Imma gonna tell my nenek tt later when i visit her. heh, tc awesomes! OH,BTW, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR& VALENTINES DAY TO THOSE WHO ARE CELEBRATING IT ! :D

2010-02-05T23:55:00.006+08:00

Hiya !
Nothing much to elaborate about. Just wanna ensure tt my bloggy is not dead. heh. Having said so, had normal training but the whole school's cca ended early due to the debate competition thingy which was hosted at our sch. Then, headed off to Simpang Bedok wyf some of my NPCC&NCC peeps. Slacked there and played true/dare using Hussain's phone. Fisa and I didnt do quite a number of dares we were supposed to as most of them were really embarrassing ones. ~baah. Hmmph, im like supposed to be sleeping ryte now as i'll be having this HRC course at Pulau Ubin tomorrow. Haiyak, must wake up early in the morning. Cannot have long wonderful dream. hahah ! Actually im scared fr the course as im scared of heights. BOO! Ghee. Hopefully i can overcome my fear. ~baah.
Hmmph, cant be able to be present fr cuzz's proposal and dinner tomorrow as i'll only be back in the evening. No one will be at home, which means ive gotta go to my aunt's house first.
alrite, gotta go fr now. i wanna siesta. heh.
&OHH, HAPPY ADVANCE BDAY KHAIRUL ! DAH NK 18 SEYH ORANG TUHH! DAH ABANG2 EYYH. HAH. GDLUCK IN EVRYTHING U DO & BE CHEERFUL OKEYH ? DO NOT DO ANY SILLY THING EVENTHOUGH UVE REACHED THE LEGAL AGE ,OK ? Heh

2010-01-30T20:42:00.002+08:00

HEY!
To begin wyf, I wanna share some of my delights. Heh.
Firstly, Im thankful&grateful enuff to be promoted to SSGT last week,yay!
Next, I passed 2 out of 3 of my tests. But apparently, the subject i failed was maths, sob ! BUTBUT, the maths test was relatively challenging. There were only 2/42 ppl who passed! Baek punyer, baah. Nevertherless, i nyd to START working harder&STOP neglecting my maths assessments ! I NYD TO CATCH UP! YEAH, IT'S A MUST!
&Oh, Ive yet to prepare myself fr my 3 upcoming tests. How kewl is that ? NOT! Hahah. Im like having tests after tests each and every week!
WOAH, 1 month down fr O's. :s Ohmy, how fast can that be ? Time do really whiz by without us realising! Alrite, time to get my brain working at a faster rate & make it really dense in content, hopefully! Heh. Dont just dream and shake ur legs Yanty! UVE OUGHT TO PUT IN GREAT EFFORT IN WORKING TOWARDS IT! HEH! :D
Ayye, will be studying wyf my CRAZY,AWESOME,FUN,HILARIOUS PARTNER TOMORROW! hah. Still considering about the venue. airport ? library ? mac ? Hmmph.

2010-01-20T00:26:00.008+08:00

I FEEL LIKE SCREAMING AT THE TOP OF MY VOICE EACH TYME MY MIND IS NOT AT EASE. BUT I WONDER WILL ANYONE HEAR IT OUT ?
I just dont understand the situation.When im trying real hard to be nice towards someone&4get about everything, ppl will still get the wrong message. Haiys. Dunia,dunia...

2010-01-17T04:09:00.003+08:00

HELLO! IT'S 4 AM AND IM STILL STUCK INFRONT OF THE COMPUTER SCREEN. GREAT! -.-

Above are basically pictures taken by Ally during last week group study.Will be studying wyf them again later and at airport. (: Ohh, my arms are really aching and cramp, thanks to the physical fitness test. 50 push-ups and 50 sit-ups ? haiyak. But luckily everything's over. heh. Oh, btw, im still considering if i shld kal/text hym to ask if he nyds his book back ? Mcm awkward ah, as in im okay wyf hym alrdy but idk how he regards me now, so yeah. howhow ? He gonna take his N level SOON, and im like still holding to his book. How will he be studying fr hist then ? alamak,mcm guilty but idk what to do. -.- Ok lah, wanna sleep now. sayonara :D

2010-01-10T01:10:00.011+08:00

These are the overdued photos. ~ghee. bye

2010-01-09T23:45:00.004+08:00

HEY ! The week seemed to pass by very quickly , agree ? It had been a very hectic day fr me. Easily tired and sleepy in class, but i must change! CANNOT sleep anymore like last year ! hahah. Finally CCA fair is over, but i still miss the pds / fancy drill. It was awesome, ghee. Not much homework, YET. Having 3 more tests next week . :/ Haiya, but it's ok lah. For my own benefits too. ~baah. Hmm, will be getting the question(s) fr F&N coursework+malay result coming Mon. Real scared. Haiya.
Oh, well , ure gradually fading away from my mind((: Im learning to forget the bitter stuffs easily just like how i forgive u & i love the way im living my lyfe now. Im not angry, just upset wyf everything tt happened. But it's ok. Let bygones be bygones. Furthermore, to err is human. Everyone aint perfect. Everyone commit mistakes but in different ways. May u live happily with whoever ure wyf now(:
PS: IGNORE MY PREVIOUS POSTS ON 25TH&27TH DEC

2010-01-03T12:19:00.003+08:00

holla. basically this is not yanty obviously. im here to helpppppp lah kans. well, yesterday i went out wyf her only. to toa payoh town park. nice view huh but sadly it was damn quiet. we cracked jokes stupid convos hilarious acts. hahaa, i shall grade it 7/10. it was totally fun eventhough i got tired easily. nahh, spent hours in the bus to get to toa payoh inter then end up like.. erhh okay. no comment. went back to the toa payoh inter after chilling ay. & i swear we were the beylos down there. front back, to & fro we went cluelessly. but the thang is we were laughing all the waaaaay. ni lahh akan tjady kalau dah jumpe budak gyler niy. camwhored in the bus. alighted near safra there. continued walking towards yanty's aunt's house like mane peey glamour. yaknoww, we wore this sort of coool geek specs while walking. hoho colourfuulll ^^ right. lastly. slacked & chilled under a block till almost 10? i bus-ed home.. boo. i wnder what can a typical group of matreps do besides singing & pollute the air at night. kalau sedap takpe(some parts) HHAHAHA ! no offence. bye.

oh waaait. feiryanty gonna have her tests tomorrow & the following dayyys. goodluck aye. tyme to get stress people! (; don't bother about the guy anymore. they don't deserve to even think about. move onnnnn girl. his motive? easy. prasan bagos. get things he want easily huh. eh eh ehhh? aiytes. enough kayh. just tagg if you don't agree :P

May peace be upon you (;

UNEXPECTED TRAGEDY,FCUK

2009-12-27T23:30:00.004+08:00

The more i try to get you out of my head, the more i tend to think about you. "Skali 10 years from now, bile i nampak u, u changed alrdy eyh. Jalan pun satsat. Hahah. Klau i dapat tau yg u masuk baju, isap rokok, i sepak u. Takpe, I will still be waiting for u ". Those stupid quotes of yours are still lingering in my mind. Hot tears will then roll down my cheeks each tyme i think about it. U said u will care fr me and protect me always. But now, u just leave me suffering alone. U said tt ure not like the other guys i used to knw. U said u wouldnt be like them, u said u wouldnt hurt me but eventually u did. I thought tt u could be someone i can turn to when im feeling down, be the shoulder fr me to cry on. But all of those can only remain as my fantasy. Yes, u won. U won this tyme. I seriously dunt know how guys get over things easily when we, girls have to bear the sufferings. & I really didnt expect to come across her blog while bloghopping. I tink it's already fated fr me to know about it. FCUK U LARH! WHY DID U EVEN BOTHER MY BESTIE AND I WHEN U ALRDY HAVE UR GAL! LUCKILY WE WERE'NT TRAP BY U! FCUKTARD!
&TO LIZAHHUNN(: :THANKS LOVE,SAYANG2 KAU. KAU SUNGGUH SWEET LARH KAN,HEH?KITER BERTIGE JIWE AHH EYH. ;D
Will be away fr camp 2mrw and will be back on the 30th,do miss me ayye awesomes.~ghee. sayonara((:

2009-12-25T19:16:00.007+08:00

The drastic change in u is really unexpected. I thought that you will never go back to your past and will keep moving on .. It was shocking when you somewhat turned back to your past . Haiys. Forget about u ? WOW much ! That easy for u to sae, huh ? It's obviously easier said than done.
`Apakah kesalahanku dan juga tingkah laku ku ?
I thought u wouldnt be like the others who just treated me well at the beginning but u eventually just come and go.
FCUK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!FCUK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!FCUK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!FCUK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FCUK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FCUK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!FCUK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!FCUK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!FCUK THIS SHIT !
DARN SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ive read Big Monster's blog & i found these lines ohh-soo-true..
`Heartbreak is the most excruciating and most fucked up feeling as i have been learning now. Disappointments after disappointments.

2009-12-23T22:15:00.003+08:00

SAPP!
Im boreddd ryte now. Currently chatting wyf my awesomee asses, Radhialove&Lizahlove ! We smewhat conference and irritate each other. Oh well, actually they irritate me most by making me lost in the conversations, at the beginning. hahah. But still, this by smewhat help to get rid the boredom in me. hahah. Went out wyf Syahirahlove frm about 1+ till 7+. Met her love at somerset fr his break then Sya and i walked around Orchard. Super hectic todae but still enjoyed it. hah. Radhialove will be away tomorrow till 3oth. & cuzzies will be on a holiday trip which i cant be able to tag along bcos of my camp. tsk. sedih. i'll be R-O-T-T-I-N-G at home. Enjoy ahh krng2! Someone bring me out,pls ? haiyaya. ok,slamat. takecare awesomes!

2009-12-22T01:13:00.003+08:00

BOOHOO! XD
Smalm kecohkecohkecoh! Fooh~ Luckily nothing went real bad. Oh,dearest,thanks sangat2 ayye. Didnt know tt u guys were vigilant to even notice all of those ..... &srry yer for being somewhat stubborn which leads to a problem for all of u. heh. I will listen to whatever u all advice me to do next tyme, Insya-ALLAH. NO PROMISES. heheh^^
I tink todae is really a scary day fr me. At the night,when i was walking home, i heard someone calling my name about thrice,i tink? When i turned, tt person tried to avoid me. So i wasnt really sure who that was. After so, he just walked to another place wyf his 2 other frens. Eeiik! My heart then beat real fast cos i was scared,ghee~ Im like still wondering who tt person is cos i didnt have a chance to really look at his face. I dont remember having anything to do wyf those ppl. Tapi mengape dieorang mengekori sayer eyh? :/
Will be having Maths lesson again later. bye~

I MISS MY AWESOME BABYGS

2009-12-21T00:15:00.005+08:00

HEY PEOPLE! IM BACK!^^
Awwh,thankiew loves fr helping me to update my almost / already dead blog,actually. U guys make it alive again! hahah. Had been real busy recently. Thus, had no time to update this blog. && srraye BBYGS fr not spending my tyme wyf u guys. Maafkan sayer yer? Sayer tdak sengaje. Sayer merindui kamu semue. Awwhh. &Ohh Rad, if we make it on the 23rd, can u make it ? We really need to go out lah kan. It has been ages since i last went out wyf u guys, my awesome BABYGS. Cheyh, exaggerating eyh. Terime kaseh yer Radhia fr helping to update blog sayer nie. heh. &to tt someone, who says im not angry wyf u fr updating it late huh ? I am, I am! Cheyh, no larh. Im good,kind and patient. hahaha! ^^
Baek ahh,have to like turn up fr maths lessons later and tuesday. . hah. But nehmind, have to brush up. & i tink imma gonna be dead when sch reopen,especially thanks to the fact that i'll be having mock exam fr all subjects during the 1st week of sch. Cos know why ? I havent even started revising my subjects except fr maths! im screwed ! :/
`I MISS MY AWESOME BABYGS....... RADHIALOVE, PLEASE BE ABLE TO MAKE IT ON THE 23RD COS WE'RE ONLY WAITING FOR THE DAE U CAN... I AM REALLY HOPING THAT THE OUTING WILL STILL BE ON!

2009-12-20T22:45:00.003+08:00

Hello! Im here to help update this little gal's blog. Haha. Actually,more to copy and paste. sorry kecik lambat updatekn blog. haha. So,here we go ....
`13 DEC 2009
I dont understand my feelings. Ive been told that i shldnt assume what the other party has at mind cos tt prediction of mine can always betray me. Haiys. Well,i guess everyone is already sick and tired of telling/advising me what to do. Cos according to one, i dont take his/her advice into much consideration cos i always assume the negative things. Haiys,i cant even understand it myself.
Oh dear, can some2 pls wake me up frm this dream ? I wish someone had just shot me straight at my face/heart. Blahblahblah...& now, im unsure if i should go fr my npcc annual camp or tag along wyf my cuzzies fr a holidae trip ?Haiyaya, i dont understand why i cant give a straight answer. Im like always unsure when it comes to making decision in my lyfe. Darn! I hate tt fact. Why?Why?Can some1 tell me why this is so? I wanna go fr the fancy drill tingy but idk ahh. Haiys..
`14 DEC 2009
Weee~~
I had a dream. W8, shall i kal it a swtdream? Hah,whatever. Cos whatever it is, i know it will not turn into a reality. Awwh. Nevermind, at least ive got the feeling . Hahah,k lame. Asl lah dlm bnyk2, bleyh termimpi psl dieq ? Not only tt. There was even flashback,still. Haiys.. Dugaan2.. Hahah, but nehmind,some1 taught me to be patient and strong to face all this. Thanks love,appreciate it lots!^^
`17 DEC 2009
Hey people! Had npcc tingy 10 am- 3pm or so. Walked to EastCoastPark together wyf CIs and squadmates frm sch. Familarised wyf the games all. I loike one of the games at sch. The trust 4 or something like tt. It's like jetty jump. Thn suddenly had a flashback. Blahblahblah. Oh,btw, 'thanks' ahh Cat for 'volunteering' for me to do the jump/fall. Hah. All my worries were gone when im out wyf my awesome squadmates! hahah. Then, after we're done wyf all the things, we walked slowly to ECP mac despite the heavy downpour. On the wae, Fisa and i chatchatchat about stuffs. Thanks for the support and advice,hunn. Sayang kamu! hah.
`18 DEC 2009
HEY! Did nothing much todae. Did usual stuffs at home. Waited fr Hanis and Hildah till about 6 plus ? Then went to bubble tea and mac wyf them and sis about 8 plus. Chilled wyf them till early 10 then accompanied them to the bus stop. After so, went home wyf sis. Then, Fisa texted! hahah, we textedtextedanndddtexted. Manage to make her smile when i mentioned her ''someone's'' name. hahah. Kiter tunggu dieorng balik lepas tuhh kiter fight k? Cnfrm i win u ahh eventhough u manage to complain to urs first. heeha^^
K,i am done. Look at the dates of the posts. Really overdued huh? sorry kecik. maaf sekali. but i know u wont scold me. haha,perasan eh.

2009-12-19T23:05:00.005+08:00

eh hiiiii. how you doing awesomes?

ghee. RADHIA here to update her blog since she can't use her comp or whatsoever. so im here; letting her blog alive again aye or whatever you call that.

hmps, so these few days have been hectic for her. i guess so? since she got no tyme to update / spare her tyme with us ;l

kan kan kanns? just say yes. i knowww. HAHAHAHA. kay drop the topic.

tyme flies & im happy wyf the rate im going now. Yanty? idk.

i hope she's doing great ayyy.

oh yayaya. thee outing? how how yan? i can't make it on thee 20th - 22nd oiyt. haiys ;l

i missmiss/love Pet, Syas & Yann lah, duh. aww, sweet lah kan i nie? HAHAHA, gawsh.

sorry peeps. im irritating, i know.

so, dengan ini, i would like to ..

erhhhhhh.

i would like tooooooooooooooo

end this post ^^

bye lovelies <3

May peace be upon you(:

PARANOID ?

2009-12-09T17:33:00.005+08:00

Firstly, I simply hate this! It's like one problem after another. Haiys.. Ive never felt this way before fr quite some time . Why must i face this situation aqain ? & im in a confusion state rite now cos im unsure if what i was told is the truth or only rumours ? Siqh. I cant have a piece of mind thinkinq about this all day lonq...
Secondly, I tink by the end of this month, imma qonna be fat! I keep on munchinq when i feel down/pissed/whatever. But who cares? Go and die.
Lastly,fcuk this shit/lyfe/everythinq. Sometimes i wonder if it's worth the tears ? Cos i feel stupid fr sheddinq those tears. Or the truth is tt im already stupid? Blahblahblah...... & srraye peeps if im not replyinq to any of your messaqes. Im just pissed wyf every sliqht thinqs and i reallyh hate it. Ok,bye,will update aqain when i feel like it.
`I cant believe tt thinqs can completely chanqe within 3-4 days ? WOW MUCH!

IM REALLY SRRAYE MY DEAR

2009-11-23T20:28:00.004+08:00

Nothinq seems to qo riqht. Damn. Ive create a damn mess,like reallyh? I knw ure upset with me eventhouqh ure tryinq to deny it. Cme'on ahh,tell me who wouldnt. Even i will feel tt way if im in ure shoes.
IM REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY SRRAYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE....... Uqh. I feel sooo stupid,damn. Shit! Did i just spoil everythinq? I should have let hym do it by himself. Uqh,i feel damn bad. Did i just let u down? Im srraye,ive qt totally no intention to do so. It was merely a misunderstandinq, I hope tt u'll believe me. & i believe tt there's a way of undoinq thinqs. Yes,imma qonna settle this matter soon. I dnt wanna it to draq any further. I knw u knw tt im referrinq to u. Im sorraye,ok? I dnt want this to affect the friendship which we treasure dearly all this while.
Currently chattinq wyf Radhialove(: & itu bacin peyh anak. Tatinq btol itu bdak. hahah. &RAAD: Ur past will still be ur future larh seyh.. im not makinq up stories, tak percayer tanyer dieq ahhk. Dieq dah create laqu khas for u laqik. Awwh much ayye? huhu ^^
&TO DEAREST SYA: Cheer up okeyh hunneyh? Tkmo sad2 ahh. Every relationship has qot its own problem. &i knw, u can face it okeyh? i knw ure stronq. LAST LONG ayye krnq(:

2009-11-19T01:20:00.006+08:00

hello humanoids..
Went to the bbq thinqy at Pasir Ris Beach on Tues. Alot of thinqs happened back then. hahah,it was kinda weird? haah,idk. lol,whateva larh ?
Ok,im like uh-soo damn pissed off with sme ppl. They simply&effinqly have no life. tsk. First, u hate her. Because of tt pathetic thinq? Childish much eyh fr a 16-year-old?
Secondly,u bad-mouthed abt her and whatever fcuk tinqs. Siak ahh. Ape laqik siak kaw nak buat lepas nie ? srraye if im beinq too vulqar ppl, but i just dnt understand these ppl. siqh.
i feel like just tellinq hym whuat u told me,love, only then will he have a better idea of whuat's happeninq. Should i ?
&oh,cn u quys PLEASE stop havinq bad impression about her. It's not like u quys her know her tt well. She's not those types who likes ruininq others life.-___- She has better thinqs to do in this lyfe,duhh. uqhh. I reallyh pity u,love. I knw tt u often lauqh ur ass out and joke arnd with us cos u care about those around u and u dnt wanna burden us. Thouqh u bottle up ur feelinqs, I can still sense that there's somethinq wronq. &like finallyh u shared some of it with me, relax ok. U still have ur BbyGs and those who treasure u. Always remember this tt I LOVE YOU. awwwh,sweet kan? hahah. We should catch up soon,aye? srraye for not beinq able to make it ystrday? hah. SOON,OK SOON?;D Now,ive no idea which path i should take,like srsly. Nvrmind, the time will tell. lol?
Currently bloqqinq,duh,facebook-inq,chattinq with Lizahlove(:, Radhialove(: and that bacin. hahah. Havinq fun chattinq wytf them,especially my 2 loves. BOO!
&susah eyh nak dpat jawapan daripada kaw. Haha.ass u. u jolly well tell me,as stated ahk? If not ...... hahah. Ok,chiao(:

2009-11-16T22:45:00.002+08:00

BOO PPL!
Srraye for the dead bloq.Was busy and had no time to even lay my hands on the lappy. So now,ive qt the chance like finallyh? Hah. Well,alot of weird thinqs happened these few days. Shall not elaborate it here cos it will come to no end. hahah. Had the bridqinq lessons fr 2 weeks. Thn had STC at Pulau Ubin on fri. Just returned from it yesterday.
Im VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY HAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPY.
hahah,k stoppit.
FIRSTLY,thanks for the very lonq overdued bdae present,love. Heh,didnt knw tt u actually still remember my bdae. Heh,i love and appreciate it btw.Sooo sweet of u larhk kan.heh
SECONDLY,STC'O9 IS SUPER DAMN AWESOME!Xcept for sme scenarios ahh. Had to walk to the campsite wearinq poncho on the 1st day as it was raininq heavily. Bt there's these 'two ppl' who didnt put on any . i bet they dont even have it,tt's why. hah. Alot of activities were cancelled due to the heavy downpour. Met quite a number of new faces at the camp. Unfortunately,not all the AREA10 schools were there.But some other schools from sme other areas were there. So,ok lerh.hah. Made some new friends from the other schools and area. My qroup was awesome. heh. Fr the 1st tyme , had a damn relaxinq NPCC camp . hah. &&i did the jetty jump,thanks to someone eyh.*winkwink. Was damn scared of it at the beqinninq and already planned to not jump but everthinq chanqed eventuallyh. heh. I had the most fun durinq the campfire thouqh it's an indoor one due to the weather. Alot of thinqs happened durinq the campfire. Kena teased by some of my friends due to smethinq,etc. Hah,but still i had funfunfun! I effinq miss STC'09! heh.
&i learnt smethinq.
"we shouldnt judqe a person just by his/her appearance. Before judqinq tt person,we should at least qive a chance talkinq to hym/her. Only then we'll be able to knw tt person personality." Kan Fisa,kan? hah ;D
Hmm,currently chattinq with DearestKasot&DearestRadiator &on the phone with die.Had some crappy conversations with Lizah.hahah,standard ahh eyh kiter. Kankan,kasot? heheh,remember jqn putus asa utk tanqkap kau nyr awan.huhuh. ok,chiao.

2009-10-21T22:30:00.008+08:00

SAPPP!I qot all my results except for History's just now.And it sucks,i tell u.Failed two subjects basicallyh.Science&Maths.pfft.tsk.At least Maths is still okeyh larh compared to Science as i failed both my sciences.Ok,whateva,was upset,duh.K now to the briqhter side.Passed my SS,POA,HMT,ENG.hmm,im still not sure what qrade i qt for F&N cos coursework had not been included yet.So yeah.Hopefully i'll qet distinction for my History and F&N.HOPEFULLY ahh.hah.YESSS AHHH,there'll be no sch 2mrw.can relax and qo out and have a piece of mind.cheyh.hahah,will be qoinq out 2mrw morninq,eeik!I fell like squashinq smethinq on their faces.cheyh,no larh.im qd.Later some1 will turn violent,scary yknw.hahah.Ok done.Above are the overdue pictures of my recent outinq at the esplanade.

AWESOME MOMENTS WITH AWESOME PPL(!)

2009-10-20T21:40:00.004+08:00

BOO! XD
I basicallyh had 2 qreat days!Will be updatinq abt tt.
1stly,had funfunfun yesterday!Met BabyGs except for Syahirah at tamp inter arnd 2.Rad and i wanted to qo to town upon meetinq but Lizah didnt wish to qo out of tamp cos she qotta qo home by 7.Then we went to LJS cos LizahDear was hunqry.then headed off to Starbucks and waited for SyahirahDear there.after 2 hours of waitinq,she finallyh reached.K then best,RadDearest and i headed off to esplanade on our own.so kecoh seyh alonq the journey.hahah,shld nt reveal it here.Met sis and her friends there.We were so kecoh there.Apparently Durrani and her family was there too.&They were the 2nd qroup of kecoh ppl there but i only qt to knw tt it was them 2dae.hahah.Had fun at esplanade cos we were so hyper.Camwhored and stuffs.
TO DEAREST BABYGS;WE SHOULD HAVE A LEISURE TIME AT ESPLANADE ONE DAY,TOGETHER.IT GONNA BE GREAT,SUNGGUH(!)
TODAY:Went to sch as per normal.Had this financial manaqement workshop and qame tinqy for the 1st 3hrs.Then,checked Enq script for 1 hr.I passed the paper,Alhamdullilah.But still qt other scary pendinq results such as Maths and SCIENCE,duh.Oh,btw,had draqonboatinq just now.It was A-W-E-S-O-M-E(!)Hah,didnt expect it to turn out to be tt qreat.I reallyh had a great time ! Btw,will be qettinq back humans and hmt results 2mrw.Wish me luck ppl. Most of the yesterday's pikchas are with DearestRad & will upload it soon,Insya-ALLAH.

2009-10-19T00:15:00.002+08:00

SAPPP!!!!!!
Im super boreddddd.hahah.Did nthnq much except for rottinq at home.I sooooo wanna qo out 2mrw.But the outinq with BabyGs was cancelled.*siqhsiqh. Now idk what to do 2mrw.Rot at home aqain?nah.i tink i'll be like qoinq out alone?hahah,SO NOT!sounds like a loner.hahah.Ok,actuallyh ive qt alot of thinqs on my mind.&idk if i shld let it out or nt.Cos im afraid tt i'll hurt someone dierectly,indirectly or in whatever way ahh.*siqh. Nehmind,im qd.Thinqs usually happen UNexpectedly.so yeah,have to qive in.ok,siqninq off now.tc lovely humanoids! :D

SPORE FLYER!

2009-10-17T22:32:00.006+08:00

HELLO HUMANOIDS! Well,let's talk abt ystrday 1st,okeyh?Hmm,had funfun!Thanks Faizul 4 qivinq me smethinq tt make me occupy my day,hah.Woke up at 5.30 am and left home at abt 6.35 am.i took like patheticly 1hr+ to qet dressed and all.Then met Zul at Bedok's Mrt there.we aliqhted at City Hall.Thouqht tt we will be late but apparently nah.Almost qet lost before meetinq his primary schmates.He was like "Kiri tuhh left,kan?"Hah,funnyh ahh this quy.he wasnt even sure of the directions.haha.Zul left early cos he need to qo to Ilmi's party,so jyeah he left me at the spore flyer there with the others.He tld me to make friends with the rest,hah.I did larh apparently with the Damai-ians.They're ok larh.After so,we camwhored and stuffs.We finished the CIP tinqy for the Nike Race at Spore Flyer at abt 7.30.&Zul,u didnt take ur 20 bucks kan?sucha waste larh seyh.
hmm,did nthnq much todae.cos i woke up late.hah,was overcome with fatique larh seyh.ok,tc lovely humanoids.
TO DEAREST RADHIA:ure 4qiven larh dearest,it's ok.hah :D

2009-10-15T15:59:00.004+08:00

HEYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!FINALLYH EOY IS OVER!~FOOH!
Well,i tink im screwed for my science and enq.tsk.Had history paper just now.It was okay lah except that i didnt manaqe to finish my SBQ,like always.OK,nehmind.At least i can relax now.
YAYNESS!i sooooooo wanna qo out 2mrw.Anyone up for it,pls?
Last but not least,GD LUCK TO ALL THE O' LEVEL STUDENTS! :D
&Oh,it's like one by one.idk how u ppl qet it.but yeah,this sucks!Oh,isnt 3/4 more than enouqh for a burden to my mind?and now,it's like +1 more,which makes it 4/5.pfft.tsk.siqh.i dnt knw how to handle it.like srsly.im sooo not qd at this.&oh boy,u owe me some explainations.Ok,bye.

`Dear God,please let me out from this confusion.i dnt wanna love anthr.I never thouqht that it will brinq me to this state.please try to understand my state ppl.

Let it qo

2009-10-08T22:18:00.014+08:00

FIRST OF ALL,HAPPY BDAY TO THESE PPL:
`CLARA LIM
`MISS NURUL HUDA

So,had my 1st paper for EOY just now which is ENG PAPER1&PAPER2.DAMN HARD,i tell u.like srsly,pfft.I tink im like reallyh screwed for for my enq paper.I almost cry and qive up halfway when i read the 1st few paraqraphs cos i cnt understand,like reallyh.Gdbye enq paper.*sobs
IM SCARED.I dnt wish to repeat,well tell me who doesn't?Have to like reallyh study hard for the other subjects.But can i make it?I meant I'll be like havinq 2 paper at 1 shot every day.Wah,how am i like suppose to memorise the stuffs all?pfft-_- Haiz,shldnt complain any further,i must realllyh study and do my very best for the other 6 subjects.Wish me luck ppl.
&OH,ppl are so random nowadays.do u realise it ?Haiz,idk lah what to say.Im ohh soo confused.But,nehmind,i have to focus on my EOY first and think abt the other stuffs later.Weird thinqs happened recently.blahblahblah...When that time comes,i wont be surprised.As much as u quys try to hide it from us,it will be more and more obvious and known any sooner or later.hah!Im tryinq to remain chill and cool despite havinq to witness those thinqs happeninq infront of my eyes.Ok,whateva.Im stronq.hah
&&Guess what ppl?i owe ALOT of ppl their bdae presents.i feel so bad.hah.im reallyhreallyh srraye.hah,i will qet smethinq for u quys when i have the time,okeyh?:D

`I never wish for it to be vividly recalled back.
Im tryinq to let it qo
But as i try,it tends to be harder.
U never know it cos i bet that u dnt even care.

2009-10-06T23:28:00.005+08:00

FIRST OF ALLLLLLLLLLLLLL: HAPPY 17TH BDAE DEAREST BRO;FEIRAZLEY.:D Hahah,ure 17th like finallyh?ok,but still,ur mind is not like a 17 year old teenaqer.qiqqles.ok,no offence yeah.uve been a qreat bro ayye,im kind enuff to write this okeyh?hah,donedone.
SAPP! Srraye peeps for not updatinq my bloq for sometime.Im on Hiatus,actually.hah So,went out with my besties and friends to celebrate Hari Raya toqether,etc.This year's Hari Raya is not as awesome as the previous years.Maybe it's due to exam?hah,wateva.2 more days to Enq EOY.Wish me luck ppl.k,done with this.

SPECIALLY FOR ALLY&&CLAIR!
Yesterday,smethinq hilarious happened at the washroom durinq lunch.Ally and Clair were talkinq loudly to each othr when chanqinq in their respectives cubicals.Durrani and i knocked Clair's door loudly,thn there was like a 1min silence.After so,Durrani and i quickly went in to the another cubical and kept quiet in there.Ally and Clair were panickinq.Durrani and i pretended to be blur and did not know what happened when they confronted us.hah,thn Ally was like 'OMG,This is an unsolved mystery.Got ghost ahh?'.hahah,i couldnt stop lauqhinq bt i pretended to be cool.hahah.

SELAMAT HARI RAYER AIDILFITRI,MOHON MAAF ZAHIR&BATIN!

2009-09-19T23:49:00.004+08:00

HELLO!BOO.Like finallyh i qt the chance to bloq after a LONG tyme.Chey,exaqqeratinq seyh.hah! Have been busy with school stuffs and preparation for rayer lerh,tt's why.Bt,nevertherless,i qot to use this lappy on the riqht timinq.i meant actually i qt to use it after finish preparinq for rayer which is 2mrw,YAY!THE HOUSE IS CLEAN+BEAUTIFULLY DECORATED.&THE DISHES FOR 2MRW ARE ALL COOKED!YIPEE,cn rest alrdy.Bt hmwrks are still NOT ATTEMPTED.Eeeik!Nk rayer pun ader hmwrk.Kasih larh ornq enjoy,kan?apedah.hah.

&Woah,im sooo happy 2dae.Oh,Isk did his 'normal' plan at midniqht yesterday.Kacau ornq tqh2 mlm ahh ini anak.He planned 2 msq,with his 2 othr frens,the same ting.But,UNFORTUNATELY,i didnt reply cos i was already asleep at 12am.hah.Woah,msq alot of ppl just now.&the best part is im not smewhat keepinq in contact with my lonq-lost 'frn',thanks to Isk nyr plan ynq sunnquh ... hahah.&&I MISS MY 'LONG-LOST LOVER' (!) See,im kind enuff to write this for u taww.k,wateva.tc awesomes(!)

&TO ALL MUSLIMS,SLAMAT HARI RAYER AIDILFITRI,MOHON MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.MAAFKAN SAYER YER JIKALAU SAYER ADER TERKASAR BAHASA,TERSILAP KATA ATAU MENYAKITKAN HATI KAMU SEMUA.SALING MAAF-MEMAAFI YER!SKALI LAGI,SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI RAYER AIDILFITRI!MESTI ENJOY TAWUK(!) :D

2009-09-11T23:31:00.003+08:00

SAP! Woah,did nothinq much todae.Spent like half of my day or more,i tink, finishinq up my f&n coursework.I wake up early arnd 7+ like tt just to do the planning which consists of many parts.Like W-O-A-H,huh?Bt still,i ended sliqhtly later which was arnd 6.10 or so when im like supposed to send it to my teacher by 6pm.Nah,but still ok kan?10 min ajer.baah
Hah,after ive completed my coursework,chatted with tt 'one is a million bestfren of Rad'. hahah. &quess what?Itu bdk kan dah plan nk collect spiderweb taw durinq dier nyer holidae nnt.hah,qila eyh boi?huakhuak!Oh,&thanks Sya for helpinq me out with the outcome of my bloq.
Eikk,i almost frqot tt i need to report to sch by 10.30 2mrw as i'll be havinq this npcc quiz competition tinqy at HTA.&I have yet to prepare my npcc stuffs,like W-O-W kan?hah!Btw,AREA 10&HTA,here i comeeee.haha! ok,tc doodles!nites :D

2009-09-08T01:10:00.007+08:00

BOOHOO AWESOME PEEPS!~baah
Im bored bt i cldnt sleep.`cos i need to smehow complete most of my f&n tinqy so tt i dnt have to reallyh struqqle later after dawn and all.Hah,borinq!So,went to qeylanq jst now.Thn break fast with cuzzies at this seafood restaurant at ChaiChee,i tink?hah.thn,off back to qeylanq.&i did saw alot of ppl i knw 2dae.Lazy to mention their names.Hah,im soo bored like seriously.Srraye ppl for wastinq your time on this entry,hah.tc loves!

` Now,when i fall,i'll compile the strenqth back to rise,
i'll no lonqer be as weak as i was last tyme
as ive learnt and will not be repeatinq my mistakes.
Oh,boy,so pls,if ure leavinq,qo farfar away.
cos I need some space to breathe.

2009-09-02T22:12:00.003+08:00

HEYHO!:D
Oh,well i had this kinda weird feelinq just now while listeninq to my music and studyinq for Mly Prelim at sch library with Durrani durinq MT lesson.The feelinq was random.It came out of a sudden.idk why.But i tink i knw why.hahah,k wtvr.Only Durrani understands this,reallyh.Oh,i had Mly prelim at Temasek Sec jst now.Tirinq&i tink im screwed.ESPECIALLY for PAPER 1.~baahh.wtvr.Just hope tt i can do betta&qive my very best for my actual MLY 'O.im havinq mood swinq now and then BUT im not havinq my period.I tink im just a little bit paranoid,bt it's ok,im qd.&im lucky enouqh to have my loves by my side.(:
*siqh
`Look,im not qoinq to be a weak person who will waste my tears on this kinda typical silly willy tinqy.Ive had enouqh experiences about it and NOW,ive reallyh learnt from the past.So,yeah.

AWESOME OUTINGS WITH DEARESTBABYGs

2009-09-01T14:01:00.004+08:00

HELLO loves! OK,this is my newly owned bloq,as u can see,duh!hah,k,wtvr. So,had Teachers' Day Concert&stuff at sch.Then boarded bus with Ani to BdkView's bsstp there to meet Sya,Ansar,Shela.Thn went to Ansari's primary sch with Sya.Mcm fhm lah kiter.TUTUP seyh qate.Enuff of that. Ohh,&i buka-ed puase with DEARESTBABYGs;Raddie,Lizah&Syas.AWESOME mann,i tell u.We were sooo the kecoh,yknw.Lizah mkn palinq best!Heh,tapi kesian die kene bully nqn kite.Syas said tis 'Eyh,kiter dtnq dulu,tapi kiter habis lbt.'So TRUE(: Then off to tmn Syas htr Ansari qy terawih@MasjidGhufran.Mcm aku,Rad nqn Lizah ynq nk qy terawih,~qhee.Then headed off to T1 fr Syas's frozen youqhurt.There,we camwhored&Rad&i had fun playinq at the escalator.heh,kekek ahh.
PLAN MORE OUTINGS BABYGs!;D